Period of Mourning...

...okay, now that I'm done mourning Andy Roddick's loss to Lleyton Hewitt (the little backwards-hat-wearing punk), I'll post! And you know, that was definitely not the best thing to see before going to school on Thursday morning. Set off my whole day. Roddick just lost it: he won the first set 6-4 or 6-3 or something, but then lost 6-7, 6-7, 1-6. It's so depressing when he loses: he's such a passionate player and you get so into it behind him, saying, "C'mon Andy! It's 5-1! You can still come back! You did it before, you can do it again!" And he's all pumped up (and pretty mad), so you just get so happy and then...bam! He loses. And even though you saw it coming, you stare at the screen for a second like, "Hold on...what happened?" Then it sinks in and, if you're a huge fan like I am, you cry. And yes, I did cry. I always cry when Andy loses. Well, he always cries when he loses too. We Andy fans are just as temperamental as he is. But, unlike some fans, we never give up. We always have hopes of him beating Federer and no longer being #2 in the tournament seeding.

Now I just hope Marat Safin can beat Lleyton Hewitt. I don't like Hewitt...and now he's not going out with Kim Clijsters, so there's nothing redeeming about him. I like Clijsters. I watched her practice at the US Open even though she was injured and wasn't in it. What I want to know is how did Safin beat Federer? The man looked unstoppable...a lot thinner, yes, but unstoppable nonetheless.

The match last night, Davenport-S. Williams (yes, I stayed home from both a friend's party and the school Coffee House to watch tennis...I see my friends all the time, I hardly ever see my tennis players), was just painful. Both girls basically backed into the finals, then Lindsay kills Serena in the first set, then Serena gets her back cracked and adjusted by the chiropracter, comes back out there, and beats Lindsay's ass into the ground. The third set was 6-1 for goodness sakes! I went to bed before it was over because it was 11 pm and I was just tired, and Serena had bounced back so strongly. I swear that girl's a miracle. And I love Lindsay...it looks like she lost a lot of weight.

My dad and I were talking: there's a golf channel, a fishing channel, why isn't there a tennis channel? I would guess it's a more popular (and, needless to say, certainly more interesting) sport. I would pay money to watch all tennis all the time...switch off between that and YES, the Yankee baseball network, and I'd be a happy girl.

So, what's the current rumor on the street? That Evangeline Lilly is going out with Dominic Monaghan. I love him yes, but I still don't see how he got a hottie like Evie. She's gorgeous, she speaks like 10 languages, she's brilliant, she's from a fairly wealthy family...I mean yes, they were stuck together on a Hawaiian island to film Lost, but why Dom? I, personally, would go for Ian Somerholder over Dominic if I had the chance (he plays Boone). Ah, well, who's to tell, maybe Dom's a cool guy in real life. He's funny as hell, we know that already (although Hal Sparks makes him look like a boring tool).

Well, that's all that's new for now. Namaste.

I'm back!

Well, last Saturday, my computer hard drive said, "Gee, I don't really want to work for you anymore. Thank you, and good night! Then I had no computer. But now, I have a new hard drive and my computer is *gasp* working! Isn't it amazing? I don't think it's ever worked quite this well - probably had a bad hard drive from the time I got the computer...and it was set up wrong.

Anyway, not much new in my life. I'm currently watching I Love the 90's Part Deux. And if I hear the junior boys say "Part Deux!" one more time in the hallway the same irritating way that the guy says it in the VH1 commercials, I just don't know what I'm going to do to them...I love that show so much - especially Hal Sparks. He's great. To be honest, the people I watch the show for are Hal Sparks, Michael Ian Black and the occasional Dominic Monaghan comment. However, after seeing Hal and Michael, I see why Dominic is an actor more than a comedian. He has his moments of Zen, but Hal actually makes me so happy sometimes...hehe, have you all seen Spiderman 2? Hal Sparks appeared as the guy randomly taking his dog in the elevator that asks about the Spidey outfit and whether it's comfortable.

Well, that's really all that's new in my life! I'm waiting for more Carley updates on her blog. Namaste.

Well, I should probably post. I really have nothing to say though. So, let me run an idea past you. I've been writing - sporadically, as school sucks the life out of my soul - and I was wondering if maybe, since I deleted my other fairly creative blog because I just got fed up with it, I should start a new one with one of my other stories. Would anyone read it? Hmm...and should I do one that's more like one of my fanfictions or one of my original creations? I'd like to do original, but the thing is I haven't copyrighted any of them, and I'm kind of paranoid about people stealing my work. I know you two wouldn't, Carley, Isabel, but...as I said, I'm a touch paranoid.

Well, I'll let you think about that. And Isabel, I thought I heard you were going to have some BD Chat Quotes up soon? I'm waiting, hon.

Oh, and Carley: musical rehearsal starts next week! Woohoo! I'm so happy...finally: something to take up my nights so I can procrastinate even further with homework. No, I actually usually get most of it done before rehearsal even starts, but it's always nice to dream. I wonder how my load will be now that midterms are over and colleges won't get any other scores...well, yes they will, but it won't matter: by then they'll have made a decision.

Well, I'm going to go do...something...don't know what exactly. Namaste.

What to say...

Okay, something has been really weird in my life lately. You know, none of my friends, not even my best friends, know that much about my life, my family and some stuff that's happened to my family. Yet, somehow recently there's someone that I've been telling practically everything too. And you know, I feel like I'm using them, because why should they have to deal with all of my shit? They're just like me: they're the person that everyone else usually uses, either dumping things on them or asking them to do something...which makes me so guilty every time I ask them a favor. Or I'll just text message them asking if I can call them, because I'm lonely or sad, and next thing I know my phone is ringing. And I just wish that they would open up to me like I open up to them. But I realize it's hard to do that to people: I never tell anyone some of the things I tell them because it's just hard to tell people something. Even if they're not the type to judge, most people do, just based on the stuff I tell them. But this person never judges to any extent at all - they're the first person I've ever met that does that. And, to be quite honest, it confuses me that I tell them everything...and worries me at the same time. It scares me when people know me - know my thinking, my life, all the good and bad stuff that goes on with me. And I don't know why it scares me so much. I was crying about it the other night, and then I felt so stupid for crying. Why should someone listening to me, really actually listening to me, scare me so much? It's not like I'm crying because I have any sort of crush on them or anything, because I don't at all...I guess it just confuses me that I can get close to someone when I've spent my whole life intentionally keeping myself distant.

That's really why my relationships never last that long...and why they're typically long-distance relationships. I mean I definitely tell this person more than I've ever told any boyfriends or girlfriends or friends or family or anything. That was one thing that pissed people - mostly guys - off: that I just don't like talking to most people. They'd confess everything they'd ever done, and I'd say "that's nice" but not share any of my own stories. But that's just the type of person I am: I listen. I spend my whole life listening to other people's conversations, and I guess I just needed someone to confess to...besides this lovely site. I mean no offense, Isabel, Carley, but I have this rule that I don't put anything in writing that I'm afraid that anyone at any point will read. It's a good personal rule - avoids uncomfortable situations later.

Yeah, so what the last paragraph was saying was that I'm a really lousy girlfriend when I am one. That's not true, though. I mean I've let all the guys I've ever gone out with seriously use me at some point in our relationship. And I have the habit of going out with the outcasts, the loners, the ones that need help (and often seriously need help). For some reason they're always drawn to me. I guess that's just the reason: I listen to them. I give advice if they ask for it, but I don't judge. I mean who am I to judge anyone? Just look at the mess that I like to call my life - who would want to come to me for advice? But I give it if people ask for it. Mostly I'm great at giving the obvious advice that, at the time, you probably don't see. I'm way too objective - it's always the stuff that you should do but can't that I suggest. Then I turn around and don't follow the advice myself.

So, I've been going back to the Barrow-Downs fairly regularly. I have a great quote for you, Isabel:
VanimaEdhel: First person to say five z's wins a special cookie...and I will never again call them sweetie or hon.
zzzzz
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zzzzzz
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Frodo_Baggins: LOL
Frodo_Baggins: Two at once!
VanimaEdhel: I didn't really mean Alak
Frodo_Baggins: ^5 Van!!!
Aldarion: awesome!
Frodo_Baggins: I think that's a new record.
Aduna: nice

So I, VanimaEdhel on the 'Downs, Carley, if you couldn't tell, now hold the mini-record for most induced into typing too many Z's in the Chat and getting banned. Two newbies at once, Isabel! Wee!

I have some great chat quotes, though. Maybe I should put them in, since they're very merry:
Lord_Elrond: I always try to have discussions, Vanima. But the teenies abd noobs rape the conversation.

OrlandoRules: Ive read a book before!
OrlandoRules: I tried to read the hobbit but it was too long
Elei_Amdirren: OrlandoRules: Have you read...or had read to you...or listened to on tape...The Lord of the Rings?
OrlandoRulesI got the tapes at the library but they were like boring

(I was Elei_Amdirren for a while too, Carley...three years at one board, I'm such a loser)

Tojo: OMG OMG! Van is so sexy! (Reyna)
BreannaBelle: omgomgomgomg Van is so sexy!

Okay, if you couldn't tell, Reyna makes my life. I love her.

BlackGallop: i had to unscrew its butt to get it to stop saying "yuuuum"

About Furbies, if you couldn't tell, but highly amusing as a random quote.

*>Ancalagone<* Greetings oh lady of infinite wisdom by the way

Anca complimenting me: no explanation needed. He's really cool. He and Alda are really the reason that I go back at all. And you, obviously Isabel. So many of the oldies are gone, though, replaced by the stupid n00bs.

Thenamir: VanimaEdhel *is* way cool

A Mod complimenting me: no explanation necessary. And if that wasn't enough:

Rimbaud: Vanima's alright, she;s a regular here and on the forum and I felt like it.
Rimbaud: Oh yeah, and she's hot

Definitely my favorite quote, by far.

Frodo_BagginsYeah there's PlayCows, PlayHorses, PlayDogs, PlayCats, PlaySiberianTiger, PlayCheetah...
Frodo_Baggins: And even: PlayVanimaEdhels.
* VanimaEdhel scrolls up: FRODO! You been taking nude pictures of me again?
Frodo_Baggins: Sorry Vanima. I couldn't help myself.

*>Bethberry<* Vanima, do you have any idea how this sounds: VanimaEdhel: Would you eat me if I did so?

Hehe...Bb. I love her so.

VanimaEdhel: Val is baby cow though *whimpers and whimpers*
VanimaEdhel: *Veal
VanimaEdhel: (good thing Valesse wasn't on for that)

Yes, I put myself in, just because I do have a nice comment every now and again.

[K] HermioneFrodo has been kicked from channel #barrowdowns by Bethberry (So many reasons.)

Kick reasons are the best.

Figwit: What?! I never, ever did naked jello wrestling!

Va: Frofro, are you okay?
Frofro-Away: help! baby frogs!

The Va was because one day I was complaining that with Vanaano...blah, blah, blah...long name I don't know and me, and everyone calling us both Van, I was getting confused, so then everyone intentionally found a name that started with Va to drive me crazy.

zifnab: I hate to know why his slab is hard.

I miss ziffy...

Guo_Si: I'd hunt elvish madiens, but I think I'm spelling madien wrong :(

Fallen_Hero: I'm gonna slice you all tto pieces with my cucumber of death!

Pesmerga: Baseball, Soccer and Basketball SUCK!!!
Guo_Si: unless its NAKED soccer! :D

Niltaliel: Thena is a powerpuff girl!

Guo_Si: Why can't girls be more like hot guys? :(

elanor: NO< MUM!!! NOT THE SPOON!!! AAA!!! *click*

* Witch-King puts on makeup and prances around in a dress... err.. robe.

Legolas: Guo_Si rushes into the room, wearing a pink dress and giggling.
Aerolecent: And that he does, Legolas. ;)
Frodo_Baggins: DADDY-GUO WEARS MOMMY'S DWESSES TOO?!?!?!
Frodo_Baggins: And I thought him taking the bras was bad....

Thenamir: no, I said she had the same grasp of grammar and spelling as a parakeet.

* Hobbitism spontainiously combusts, just to liven things up

Laurefin: waterdragon: uh, wha? eh? moo? lalalala <-- intelligent? rofl
waterdragon: intelligent. Moo

Thenamir: WHaddaya mean? Do I have a sign painted on my shirt that says "Thong Patrol"??
LadyEowyn: Yes, Thenamir.

Aragorn_Protector (from the Forum): When you see elves shield-boarding down stairs at Helms deep you know PJ needs a catscan

Gayahithwen: !malbeth who here should be worshipped?
Wight-Bot: Gayahithwen asked
0,2" who here should be worshipped? "
My answer is
12,8 VanimaEdhel

Hehe...my moment of triumph...

Halla: omg! lets play a game...first one to say 5 z's WINS!!!
ulmoisgay: f uck
ulmoisgay: zzzzz
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So close to being able to stay when he put the space between the f and the u...then he just had to go and fall for the 5 z's (my game, people...I made it up, so all royalties go to me).

Cordellia: dude, pentagram666, you're very dull-witted
pentagram666: i'm not a dude
Imp: why didn't she object to the dull-witted part?

The following contain more comments that were followed up by questions of the person's intelligence:

* Pippin was making a resimay for a summer job.. and i never knew how many i could put on it!

elvenwarrior: i graduate tomarrow!

And then...there's:

Sharku-away: holy smokes, what was that, a page rape?
Beleth: Not rape, Sharku, merely innuendo

ben: and you vanima you rule and are the king
VanimaEdhel: May I be the queen, as I am female?
ben: ok

* VanimaEdhel smacks nerd: read the books!
nerd: well...theyre kinda long.
Haldir: yeh, they are long and dull
nerd: very dull...thats why i quit reading them

Oh, Haldir (Mystra), why do you keep changing your IP so you can return to the Chat?

Ulmo: My personality was squelched by a bitter experience with a Chia early in life
Ulmo: It's traumatizing for me to think about

Bethberry: Ladies, ladies, don't you know that men are like buses?
Bethberry: There will always be another one along in ten minutes.

VanimaEdhel: Mindez used me!
VanimaEdhel: Yay!

[N] Legolas is now known as ButterflyMaiden
* ButterflyMaiden giggles and dresses up, then goes to flutter to the fields.

* me wonders if excitement will rear its head soon
[N] VanimaEdhel is now known as excitement
* excitement rears her head
[N] excitement is now known as VanimaEdhel
VanimaEdhel: You happy, me?

Frodo_Baggins: WHERE IS HER?!
Legolas: Guo is a girl? No wonder

Palenturion: so are you the kind of dorks that hit on each other in elvish?

(The answer to that, by the way, is yes)

Estella: .msg Sharku-away so you're single?
Estella: oops

I love when people type . instead of / when sending private messages...allows the room so much more fun.

And that's all the nice quotes. I'll get more soon...there are certainly enough newbies around lately. They made me whimper the other day when they were gushing over Legolas (okay, fake whimpering...then I used big words and their minds blew up).

Okay, and in case you couldn't figure it out, I took out the brackets because the words didn't show up...silly HTML...

Haven't posted in a while...

So, before Isabel starts yelling at me, I figured I should. I've been kind of busy, though, and I actually have the legitimate excuse that my phone line was down, so I couldn't go online. I have no clue why the only phone line that ever goes in the house is my computer line. Oh well, go figure. My dad's computer line always works and the two phone lines work, but whenever they work on any telephone lines anywhere in Cortlandt or Croton, this phone goes out. When we see the Con Ed trucks out, we know I'm going to have problems within the next few days.

Well, I had my Spanish midterm today. It was good. That's about really all I can say. I've been okay recently for the most part. The funeral for my old gym teacher was Wednesday night, so I went to that. You know, part of me is still wondering how he could be gone. If he - one of the strongest people any of us knew - couldn't fight his cancer, then none of us have any hope if we ever get it.

Well, nothing really new, as I said. Namaste.

January first...

If that really means anything. I mean it's not like the world said, "Gee, I'm now 2005 years old since a character that people say is named Jesus was born. Woohoo. Break out the champagne." Actually, it's not like I said any of that either, really. What was my New Year's Eve like? Well, I watched a movie called Frantic. Then I watched one of the New Years' Eve shows - the one with Ryan Seacrest. Well, my dad chose it. I probably would have watched the one with Regis over the one with Seacrest. But my dad found Seacrest less offensive or something I guess. I think he only chose that one because I yelled at him for flipping around from station to station.

The commercials basically killed everything, though. They had commercials from 11:52 pm until like 11:58 and 25 seconds. I was like, "Cutting it close, are we?" What I really want to do is go down to Times Square next year. I've never been down there for New Years' before, and I really do want to go. Although, me in a mass of many thousands of people might not be the best idea.

So, I just turned on The Honeymooners, because I was just like, "Oh, crap! I haven't watched them at all today." It's a tradition for me to watch at least one or two episodes every New Years' Day. They stopped showing at 6:30 am for the morning marathon, though, because they had to show their annoying cartoons. I woke up at like 8:30, so I missed that stretch. So now I have this one. It's on until 7. At which point I'm probably going to switch over to VH1 because I Love the 90's has been having a marathon - on and off, in chunks, really - and it starts again at 7. Aren't you so glad I told you my pre-dinner TV schedule?

Sorry I didn't post these past few days. I had a really rough day on Thursday - don't really want to type about it - and I was kind of recovering still on Friday. I was happy, don't get me wrong, but I still just didn't know what to say. It was one of those days where I was over-reacting to things anyway, then some stuff happened to make it worse. I scared and upset my mom a lot, though. I felt really bad about that. But then again, parts of Thursday I scared myself, so...

I mailed all of my college applications, though. Today I finished up the rest of my financial aid stuff.

Umm...what else? What else do you want to know? I'm cold at the moment, probably because I'm tired. And I really, really, really don't want to go back to school at all on Monday. But I know I should because I'll just become really anti-social. And obviously I don't really have a choice in the matter. You know what I'd really like? No, I don't know what I'd really like. I was just hoping you all would know what I wanted. It's always worth asking.

Blah...I'm tired. Well, I'm going to go. I think I might change the format of this thing. Namaste.